"You are one of the most beautiful people I know!"
How did she react?
"Oh my god..."
How did I feel?
“If Sarah ran for German chancellor I would vote for her.”, I will never forget my English teacher say that seven years ago. Neither will I forget me thinking, “Yeah. Me, too.” Not because Sarah was my year’s political party activist, in fact I don’t think she has ever been a member of a political party. Neither did she remind anyone of Angela Merkel. It was because Sarah is who she is: One of the most beautiful people I know. Sarah is the kind of girl you can party all night with and have profound conversations the day after. Philosophy, politics, economics- pick your subject. Sarah will engage in the chat offering her smart perspective and listening carefully, continually checking in with her heart. She manages to stay true to her ideals, her experience and her gut, all at the same time. Simultaneously she senses her opposite more precisely than most people would be capable of even if their hearing was turned up 100 db, their eyes were looking through microscopes and their hearts were widenend with molly. Sarah is personified sensitivity. Naturally perceiving the space between the lines she makes the moments you share with her feel like feathers floating through the air. After hanging out with her I always feel warm and light. That is not just a result of her ultimate awareness. It comes through my loving her, too. Obviously: I have known the lady for eight years. I liked her instantly when I first met her towards the end of high school. Today my affection has grown into love. I consider that normal. When someone has been in your life this long there is a sense of caring for each other no matter what, and if you stay in touch with that person it is likely to increase. Countless moments connect you. But there is a second sensation whose growth, or recurrence, is unique to me: Platonically falling in love with her. Do you know someone you have been friends with forever but you are not sure whether you would still have a friend crush on them if you met them now? Maybe everything you once shared has changed? Maybe the two of you have been walking into different directions? Maybe you secretly look at them sometimes and wonder whether you would like them at all if you were introduced to them today? With Sarah it is the opposite. Yes, we don't go to school together anymore. And yes, her major in college- she is going to business school- is about the last thing I would want to study. Yes, she has always been into hip hop dancing which I have no clue about. But: Sarah's awesomeness makes up for it all. Screw that, her awesomeness turns it all around! She makes me see the fascinating parts of economics. Her passion for her studies consumes all the space around her when she talks about it. Listening to her I sit breathless, a drop of drool dripping off my chin, thinking, "Woah, managing money rocks!". There she is, the lady my high school teacher and I would vote for, explaining to me how business plans can make the world a better place while in her eyes there are two suns that shine bright. So no, it is not that I am merely accepting that our paths parted and she is going to business school while I am majoring in philosophy. Instead I love it! Because I get to learn from her, because she and I can brainstorm opposite ends of the same thing together and because drowning in someone else's passion is the greatest feeling. The same principle applies to her Hiphop dancing and all the other realms she moves in which I have no access to. Instead of leaving me outside Sarah opens the door for me to get a glimpse at what is going on. Not by excessively explaining but by living what she is doing. Whatever Sarah starts she is present in it, immersing and enjoying herself. Sparkling in her activities she inspires me over and over to check out things outside of my horizon. And, yes, she makes me fall in love with her. Again and again. When she comments on an insight I share she always sheds light, adding a perspective or example that stress the good in what I put forward. Even if Sarah finds herself in a situation she does not favor she is at ease. Like back in high school: Sure I saw the girl sick and tired but never unable to laugh. Her smile is always just a sentence away and the joy she spreads is capable of spontaneously sparking a party more vibrant than a Sunday at Berghain. I believe her fire on the one hand and her ease on the other are part of why Sarah is successful in what seems like an endless number of things; Modeling, writing, working a PR job at a bad ass company, studying, dancing, cooking. Those are only a few examples. I am glad that her talents and overall greatness is recognized and celebrated by her bosses, professors and friends! Seeing how well received the light Sarah puts out into the world is makes me burst with pride of her and restores my belief in humanity.
Being friends with Sarah is a blessing. Not just because she is such a radiant, successful person. She has got tons to give on another level, too. There is a part of her I have not praised yet, it is the one care about most. Sarah's heart. This one is bigger than our whole planet, no, bigger than the universe. One of the most loving people I know Sarah strokes any pain away with her warm glance and her rad back scratching skills. She is there when I need her and ready to celebrate highs and hold hands over lows with me. Receiving her love is one of the most incredible gifts I have ever gotten. Thank you so much for that, Sarah.