"You look insanely beautiful!"
How did she react?
"Thank you! You're gonna make me blush!"
How did I feel?
It was the rom-com scene. He sits on the subway late at night. Flickering lights, empty faces, fading conversations. The train stops. Doors open. And-- SWOOOSH! Suddenly every corner of the wagon is sun-drenched: She has just entered. She radiates with glow. Not the sparkly spotlight kind but the natural beauty one. He shining is subtle yet omnipresent. Her hair like gold, her eyes soft, her smile radiant. He stares at her, and can't stop. He is bewitched.
Today I was him; Call me pathetic but this is exactly what I experienced. There I sat, for two stops, looking at Lena, thinking "Now I know what it feels like to fall for a girl head over heals." I did not feel an urge to ask her out, the rom-com stopped right there, at me, unable to take my eyes off of her. That was it. I did not want more than to admire her appearance. Everything about her was beautiful. The way she moved and her gestures. Her fragile pulchritude next to her clear and steady voice. The way she laughed with her friends. It's hard to find words. Let's leave it at this: She was special.
When I walked up to her and complimented her, she laughed and said, "Thanks, you are making me blush." Then she asked, "But is this honest now?" I had told her about the project before sharing my admiration. Now she was suspicious. I shook my head and said, no, it was totally honest. She nodded and added, "This is a nice thing you are doing there! Now that I think about it... I see so many people myself and think, "What a beautiful human being!", but when do I ever walk up to them and tell them?" I said, "Yeah, totally!" "Especially in Germany..."
We chatted for a moment and I learned that she studies at my school and is about to leave town for 6 months: She'll be in Ecuador from next week on. Lena transformed from beautiful subway girl into an encounter who listened with her eyes wide awake and her mind open. And of course, who stayed beautiful. Thanks, Lena, for the rom com feeling today, and everything else! All the best for Ecuador!